Depression and other mental disorders
Question
I am 27 years old. I was non practising Muslim, but 7 years ago I started practising. For a few months everything was going fine, but after that doubts started in my mind. To make the story short, I did everything to cure, wazaif,medical treatment, etc.I lost my mind completely, I was crying too much, I lost my job due to depression, then I was hospitalised and doctors said its OCD, anxiety, etc. It's been 7 years I am in doubts in basic Islamic teaching like hereafter, angel, and these doubts are down rooted in my heart, that whole day I provide proofs to myself, but it doesn't help. I lost every thing prayers, tahajjud, zakaat, fasting, Ramadan, because most of the scholars says that ibaadah (prayers) with doubt is useless and doubters will be among infidels. I also have some psychological disorder like depression, OCD, personality disorder, social anxiety disorder. Please tell me what should I do? Please tell me what is this, weak faith or psychology problem? I know there is no way of return for me, but I don't want to die in this state. Till today I am trying my best to clear my mind from these nonsense doubts but nothing helps. Please tell me should I keep going like this, or there is any hope for me?
Answer
Don’t worry about clearing your mind. Leave out all literature and media. Frequent the company of some righteous shaikh and aalim and read the Fazaail-e-A`maal and Fazaa’il-e-Sadaqaat in the mornings and evenings.
And Allah Ta'ala (الله تعالى) knows best.
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- Mufti Ebrahim Salejee (Isipingo Beach)
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